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When I was 11, I found out I had a brain tumor. I had surgery to remove it, but the size and location of the tumor caused my optic nerve to atrophy. For three years afterward, I had partial sight, but my ophthalmologist told me that eventually I would go blind.11岁那年，我被诊断患有脑瘤。手术切除了脑疱.但肿瘤 的大小和位置却导致了我的视觉神经萎缩。3年后，我还能看见 一点点东西，但眼科医生说我最终会失明。At the end of my 14th year, doctors pronounced me legally blind and said there was nothing that could be done. I had a 5 percent chance of surviving the tumor, and I did, but somehow I could never deal with the fact that I was going blind. I tried to behave as if everything were just fine. When it happened, I was devastated.快过完14岁时，医 生断言我已经完全失明，并且亳无办法治疗，当时，我患上脑 瘤后，存活的几率只有5%，结果我活了下来，但对于即将失 明的现实，我却无能为力。我努力表现得一切正常，但当它真正 成为现实时，我却绝望了。My dad left us when I was 15, and I took that really hard. Because of that, and because I was blind on top of it, my greatest fear was that no one was ever going to love me, that I would never get married and have kids and a full life. I was afraid of bei