Unsoulmated Podcast (or How To Ruin A Lasting Marriage With A Divorce)

Day 44. The act of masturbation for myself had been stunted by my wife's long-running criticalness of my sexuality outside of the two of us. Her judgmental view on using pornography for masturbation put a barrier for myself emotionally regarding that avenue of sexual stimulation. But now my mind is free to explore all realms that she would have looked down on. But why can I not enjoy that freedom right now?