Seek And Destroy

In this episode Brett and Carson do a deep dive into what it's like to quit daily drinking as Carson chooses to do Sober October.  Recorded 21 days into Carson's first attempt at going a month without alcohol, the duo delve into discussions around the challenges of quitting drinking when alcohol is always readily available and most social events revolve around drinking, while exploring stats around alcohol use which leads to some startling discoveries.  The conversation then moves into discussing victim mentality and taking accountability for one's own life experience.

In this hard to listen to episode, Carson exposes what it's like to be in the midst of a CPTSD flashback without even knowing it. Heavily triggered by some recent events Carson and Brett discuss whether it is ever truly possible to trust others and feel secure while Carson struggles with jealousy and compulsive hypervigilance for threats.  Through this discussion Carson discovers that a lack of self-love is at the heart of his trust issues and that he is stuck in victim mentality. Be warned that this episode has some extremely negative self-talk and may be triggering for some listeners. 

Brett and Carson discuss the challenges of learning to be unapologetically authentic even when it means other people might not like you.  They then move into an exploration around a difficult process Carson went through during his Conscious Relationship Training program which leads into some conversation around the trickiness of the ego and how it holds on for dear life as we try to address the troublesome aspects of it.

Brett and Carson discuss the futility of trying to avoid healing as Carson continues to put himself on blast for his over-identification with being a good lover.  Then the tables are turned as they inquire into whether Brett has "landed" and if his anxiety meds are helping him bypass his opportunities for growth.

We're back! And still alive! On this episode, Brett & Carson catch up on the last few years and talk a bit about living life exactly how you'd like to.